The room seemed to shrink around them. She heard everything he said. That seeing her tonight had brought him here. That he hadn't figured everything out. That he hadn't been a good husband. She wanted to argue with that last part. To tell him he wasn't giving himself enough credit. That yes, they'd ...

The question settled between them. Not because she didn't understand it. Because she did. Selah's gaze dropped immediately to where his hand rested against his wedding band. The sight of it made something ache in her chest. He still wore it. After everything. After months. He still wore it. Then aga...

The question caught her off guard. Not because of what he asked, but because of how normal it was. After months of silence, after everything that had happened between them, Dorian had shown up at two in the morning looking like a man carrying the weight of the world on his shoulders, and the first t...

For a moment, Selah just stared at him. Not because she didn’t understand the question but because there was something about the way he stood there that unraveled her completely. The hesitation, the roughness in his voice, the way he looked at her like stepping over that threshold meant more than ju...

She'd returned home, stripped out of her best dress, showered and put on her comfy clothes before settling into the couch downstairs to rot. Out of everything that had happened the last thing she'd expected was Dorian actually speaking to her, Selah hadn't been prepared for that. But of course duty ...

Selah stood there for a moment after the doors shut, her gaze fixed on the place where Dorian had disappeared, the muffled echo of that thud reverberating somewhere deep inside her chest. The sounds of the ball swirled back in, laughter and music resuming their dominance over the space, but to her i...

The moment his fingers tightened around hers, Selah felt the air shift between them, the weight of something unspoken settling deep in her chest. Dorian had never been a man of restraint—his words were often sharp, his emotions a storm she had learned to navigate. But now… now he hesitated. He fumbl...

The moment his hands found hers, Selah nearly faltered. His touch—something she had ached for, something she had dreamed of even when she knew she had no right to—was suddenly real, grounding, familiar in a way that made her breath catch. His fingers, warm against her own, pried hers apart gently, b...

At first she hadn't noticed him but suddenly Selah realized there was a familiar feeling of eyes on her and she subtly glanced around until she spotted him. He'd cleaned up, she realized even if most likely wouldn't have noticed. Compared to how he'd looked on their doorstep that night he'd been bla...

Walking down the stairs the memories flowed to her and Selah smiled softly. Sure she walked these halls plenty now meeting with her kids when they couldn't leave the grounds or with professors to discuss their progress. But tonight was different, it was a party and she'd thought about skipping it; k...

When he confirmed that Professor Fah was still there and available she smiled, "I owe her a visit. Professor Fah helped me a lot when I was a student." Even if she knew the likelihood that her old Professor would immediately see straight through her and know Selah was dealing with problems...

Listening as he responded Selah nodded as he laid out what his plans were school wise, at least it sounded like he had things in perspective to stay on track. So things had rattled him that badly yet, that was a good sign all things considered. When he seemed more confused than not about her mention...

Shaking her head she smiled, “It’s alright, just reminding you… regardless of what we’re going through, it’s always good to be aware of what is going on with those around you too.” His question about if she wanted to go to America combined with the one about her husband made her instantly sober, “It...

Sitting back as he began to look over the tea leaves in her cup, Selah kept her comments and thoughts to herself throughout until he commented on overthinking again. “The only thing you're missing is who you are reading… that ain’t you, kiddo. Remember whose tea leaves those are.” It was always the ...

Selah squeezed his hands at his comment about doing for her, “I appreciate that but you don’t have to do for me kiddo, not your job. It’s mine to do for you and I do it because I want to. None of you should be punished or treated any differently just cause you don’t happen to be a pureblood.” That w...

Selah shifted back in her chair some when he snapped the comment, a racist? Well that hadn’t been mentioned before. When he apologized she shook her head and sipped her tea motioning for him to continue, obviously there was more he hadn’t said and he needed to get it all out now. She sat quietly lis...

Selah wasn’t judging him, heck she understood more than most how he felt. She’d essentially cut her own mother off a long time ago but not entirely despite all the hurt she’d caused her because that hope was still there. At his question she bowed her head, “As soon as she bothers to try I’ll let you...

When he returned settling with his butterbeer and mentioned always causing her trouble she reached across playfully smacking his arm, “Oh please! You do not. You are the least troublesome thing in my life right now.” Sipping her tea she gave him whatever time he needed but Kyle didn’t seem to need m...

July 15,2005 When the letter had arrived Selah had been sort of caught off guard but not entirely. After the last time she’d checked in with Kyle Winters she’d made herself a note to expect to hear from him soon. But the subject of his owl wasn’t exactly what she’d expected to hear from him about, ...

Shaking her head absently she chuckled, “It will always be something else, Mal. The sooner you figure that out the sooner you figure out my biggest gripe with my husband.” Much as she loved Dorian and Merlin knew she did, there was always something else when he was avoiding the obvious like a conver...

She snorted softly and took another long sip of the drink he’d fixed her, “You’re regular had it right to be sure, starting to feel like I am screaming into the void at this point.” It didn’t matter what she’d done before he’d even brought up the whole separation thing, Dorian wouldn’t talk to her. ...

His comment made her shrug her shoulders absently, “He doesn’t think so.” Sipping the drink some more, a brow lifted when he continued bringing up the whole ‘take one for the team’ and she snorted despite herself. Setting the drink down she didn’t hesitate to lock her gaze with him, “I’m already tak...

She sat back in her seat more than once at the display before he placed the drink down in front of her making her chuckle softly, “Even if it isn't, the show alone was worth it.” Granted she doubted it wouldn’t be at least something she could drink, he hadn’t gone wrong with the first one. Picking i...

She nodded, “Likewise Mr. Lee… or Mal if I am permitted of course?” When he mentioned Dorian hadn’t been there in a while she sighed, “He’ll be back, this is the one place aside from the school he’s least likely to completely abandon.” Selah didn’t mean it to sound irritated or offended, hardly it w...